Dear Alan, The first time I saw you was in Harry Potter, you were very intimidating, probably that was one of the main reasons why you fully attracted me, because of you I’ve watched the whole series but then I began searching. I really didn’t know your name back then so I searched “the actor of Professor Snape.” and then I got your name “Alan Rickman.” and from that moment forward I started learning more about you so far I’ve watched “Close My Eyes” , “Somethings The Lord Made” , “Die Hard” And I am still planning to watch more films. Since July 2024, I started calling you my honorary father, I started loving you like one. Because to me you my honorary father, which I hope you know that even when you’re not really around us anymore usually people say that soul knows more than the living body. I really want to believe that it’s true because if it is then you already know that I keep on calling you my honorary Dad. Sometimes I would sit alone imagine what if you were still alive? What if you know who I am? I don’t want to know your as the actor. I want to know as a person as a father that I never had. When I say I don’t want to know you as an actor, I don’t mean anything negative about it. All I mean is since I already know you as an actor I want to know you as a father that I never had, it’s just to clarify. I love you so much You may rest in peace, Dad B.R